I keep trying to figure out what Steele would be telling me right now if he were here. But I can’t hear him. I can’t believe how uncertain life is. I don’t want to talk to anyone because I keep listening to try to hear his voice. I wonder if he knows all my secrets now. I am afraid for …

Life just goes on when you die; makes it seem so pointless. The Man of Steele is gone. I feel like we got the short end of the stick. We’re the ones still stuck here on this shit hole. Time stopped when Steele was sick. Now it’s started back again, and everyone wants to get on with their lives. They …

Steele is very weak and very tired. He sleeps a lot. We continue to have faith that there is nothing too great that Doctor God can’t cure, and thank him for the blessing of life he continues to honor Steele with. One of the first things Steele told me at the start of this ordeal was: “I know you want …

Dear Mother/Father God, I pray that this experience will help those who love Steele and love each other to draw nearer to each other and help to heal the wounds that exist in all of us. Throughout all of this, I have come to understand the concept of love in a whole new dimension: I now firmly believe that love …