So beautiful: a mother’s love

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

The Thursday morning before Steele died I called my mother in the Bahamas and asked her to come to Jamaica as soon as she could. I didn’t know Steele was going to die the next day; I didn’t know why I wanted her there; I just did. She came on a 9 pm flight from the Bahamas. That night I …

Homecoming memories (Bahamas Tribute to Steele)

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

Steele only came to the Bahamas once. He was so nervous about coming and excited at the same time. He thought I was going to introduce him to so many people; he wasn’t looking forward to that. But when we arrived he obediently followed me to meet a few Aunts, Uncles Goddies and friends. We were only going to be …

I wish we could have one more fight

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

In the past five years I can only recall Steele and I having one major fight, in which I went to bed and thought it was really over, or where we didn’t send a conciliatory text message during the course of the night to say “I love you” or call in the morning to make sure everything was okay. I …

I only had one month and didn’t even know

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

I surprised him the night I arrived at the hospital in Jamaica. I didn’t tell him when I was coming. He was looking so strong and happy that night. And no lie, when I found out that someone had come and prayed with him earlier that evening, after which he was feeling so strong and upbeat, I was a little …