Wanting more

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

I don’t remember your last nameYou told me once, twice before I was looking awayAt your pictures on the wallA ball-head those daysYoung boy dealing with young girlsOn playing fields

Free from expectation

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

When I live in the future it brings me pain and suffering, because I setup expectations for my life that I have no control over. When I start to think about all the what ifs – whether positive or negative – it always leads to pain, because I have no control over these things, and no matter how elaborate my …

Is communion cannibalism?

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

I had a dread experience this weekend taking communion at my grandfathers funeral. I practiced a new meditation to rid myself of fear and connect with the divine. I’ve spoken before about how all fear is irrational and boils down to one thing, fear of our own mortality, but I I have more to say on the matter. Fear of death is …

Tribute to Daddy Wenzel

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

Wenzel Nicolls Sr (November 5, 1926 – January 12, 2010) My grandfather’s blood lives on in me. His body is gone, but his spirit will always be with us. I celebrate him so he may be lifted up to take his seat amongst the great ancestors. As a proud Bahamian and strong African man, he was a hard worker and …

The morning after

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

Good morning world! Noelle Khalila is born again. This time I pushed myself out of the womb of my mind, but my mother, and by extension my father, played no less of a role than when they pushed me out 25 years ago. At my reBirth party on Sunday I had both of my parents by my side. Particularly because …