Thank you to all those supporting the R. Kirk Steele Memorial Scholarship initiative. I am really sad I couldn’t be at the launch, although I probably wouldn’t have been much company. As this is being read, I am miles away in Alaska, which is the only reason I am not there. I wrote this in my prayer book with the launch …
So much static in my brain: ‘Fuck off’ is what I just picked up
Dear Steele: I often have to remind myself you were a real person. Sometimes you feel like a dream, like a fantasy I got to try out, to try on. I want to write a story about Mr. Good Enough. He knocked on my door and I didn’t answer. I didn’t have faith. I was too busy looking for Mr. …
I have a heart like Swiss cheese.
Dear Steele: I have a heart like Swiss cheese. Empty space in the hole you left, like the crater lake of the Taupo Volcano, surrounded by solid rock energy erupting with love for what my senses can still perceive. The doctor says the hole will get smaller over time, but it’ll never completely go away. I wonder what the hole …
Can I live with my sadness?
Dear Steele: If I were to go somewhere, or do something to take my sadness away, what would it cause? Would it cause me to give up my friend, to give in my piece of treasure? Would I stop writing you, talking to you, being comforted by you, kissing you? You weren’t mine to possess, so how could you be …
Ask and ye shall receive: I wish it were so simple
Dear Steele: I hear you are real busy up there, pulling strings to keep the family together. You now how some people can hear what spirits say. I wonder if when I talk to you, you hear what I say. Turns out, my summer is booked out too. I was gonna say a prayer tonight and ask God for something, …