We are the ones we have been waiting for

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

Dear God: When Steele said he finally felt the love, I wonder if what he was thinking was that he finally felt worthy, he finally felt good enough. When you feel worthy of love it helps your soul to grow and it opens you up to feel another level of emotional connection with the world. When you don’t feel worthy …

I am pregnant

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

Dear Steele: I am pregnant. Good news is you don’t have to worry about all the hormonal imbalances I am going through: not because you’re not here, I know you would not appreciate being forced to be an absentee father, but because the child is not yours. One of my girlfriends said I should have talked to you about freezing …

Making love without making love (Part II)

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

After several months of emailing and intermittent talks on Google Chat, I finally agreed to meet him face to face. We went out for drinks. Drinks turned into lunch. Lunch turned into dinner. Dinner turned in habitual rendezvous, during which we laughed and talked and enjoyed each others company. I was big on bar games, so he taught me Darts …

Escaping from oblivion; restoring the light

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

Dear Steele: When I was in Switzerland, and MSN messenger was just getting big, I remember I would email my boyfriend at the time maybe once a week, and occasionally we would meet online to chat on MSN. If I didn’t hear from him after about a three of four days or maybe even a week after an email or …

Making love without making love (Part I)

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

Khalil asked her if she was a sensual person. The question seemed odd; she had never contemplated her sexuality in such a way. She thought of herself as sexy, at times, or solid, as many men would call her, but never sensual. Sensual was something she pictured of a woman that expressed a confidence and elegance about her sexuality and …