Plans to be reborn revealed

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

When I am dead I would like people to know that when I was approximately 9,008 days old I realized something about my life: I was ready to die. I was no longer afraid of death or dissatisfied with my life, or unhappy about my achievements. In fact, I longed for death, not in a desperate suicidal way, but in …

Discovering the ultimate catharsis

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

I’m writing a book. Not sure if I’m publishing it, but I am definitely writing it, just because there is a story to be told, but more importantly because I need to release my pain to the universe. Now that everything is unraveled I am piecing it back together with unveiled perspective. The new picture is so seamless it’s scary. …

Stop doing. Start being.

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

I loved Iyanla Vanzant’s meditation for October 14, in her daily word book Acts of Faith. The affirmation for the day was: “I am”. The inspirational quote was: “Stop doing. Start being.” The main difference is that doing is intellectual and being is spiritual. When we get stuck in the doing of things we get trapped in our minds, thinking …

Thoughts on my sankofa journey

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

Sankofa, the Akan word for ‘go back and fetch it’, is one of my guiding lights. Most people have heard about the Sankofa principle before, probably from Marcus Garvey, who said: “A people without knowledge of their past history, origin and culture is like a tree without roots.” I am on a Sankofa journey, just like the mythical Sankofa bird …

Five reasons not to commit suicide

Noelle Khalila NicollsPrayer Book

White chocolate ice cream with honey coated walnuts and crushed waffle cone chunks on top. I prefer a towering spiral of soft serve but two scoops of frozen ice cream are just as sweet. Better than a walk-in freezer on a hot summer day. Better than a body shot at a drunken soiree. A bouquet of water-sprayed flowers from a …