Amazed by his grace: Tribute to Steele

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

Dear Steele: Today I am giving thanks for the great gift of sharing in your transition. I have found new peace and great joy in freeing myself from my material attachments and embarking on my Sankofa journey. In the world we shared I was desperate for your success. My identity was completely wraped in our dreams of success. I had …

Junkanoo unleashing my lioness

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

When I discovered one of the best ways to communicate with my soul was through dance, I decided my first order of business would be to reconnect with the Valley Boys Junkanoo* group and officially become a Valley Dancer. Mission accomplished: my first performance was last week in the Youth March rush out. Dancing was the easy part. The hard …

Website renamed: Memoir of a Creative Extremist

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

Six months ago to the day my life stopped when irrevocable life changes carried me to the precipice of death. Most of my friends and family are probably wondering when I will ever rise from the ashes. Between my silence and unexplained behaviour it probably seems like never. I hope my latest project will give some of you hope. I …

Plans to be reborn revealed

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

When I am dead I would like people to know that when I was approximately 9,008 days old I realized something about my life: I was ready to die. I was no longer afraid of death or dissatisfied with my life, or unhappy about my achievements. In fact, I longed for death, not in a desperate suicidal way, but in …

Discovering the ultimate catharsis

Noelle Khalila NicollsLove Letters

I’m writing a book. Not sure if I’m publishing it, but I am definitely writing it, just because there is a story to be told, but more importantly because I need to release my pain to the universe. Now that everything is unraveled I am piecing it back together with unveiled perspective. The new picture is so seamless it’s scary. …